The tears returned again today.
Its been so long since I last cried I almost forgot what it felt like. I think i've shed so many tears when I was too young that as time passed, I forgot their value. But then those weren't really tears, I think tears mean different things at different ages. At that age, all they meant was that I was afraid and it was the most natural way to release.
Enough chids of "Ladkay nahin rotay!", and it almost became like a mantra. Fear is not an emotion that should lead to crying...tears are too important to waste on fear. But at thirteen you are to young to diffrentiate, so I just stopped crying altogether. I wasn't the smartest cookie on the block.
It's easier to be indifferent, if we actually started to feel...I think we wouldn't be able to stop crying. It feels so good, and all it took was children singing in a language that I could not understand. Maybe we misplace the importance of words, they are after all just spoken feelings. The feelings make you cry.
I used to think that there is so much sorrow in this world, that if I took a moment to breathe it all in, I would just drown in tears. Isn't that how everyone thinks now? A genocide in Africa - not my business. Children dying in Iraq - atleast mine are safely at school. Earthquakes in Asia - good thing i'm all the way over on the other side. The Other Side.
Yet today someone said something...no someone said something a decade ago, I just heard it today. Do we feel shame any longer? Can indifference be drowned in it? There are people that have so much on their platter, that I would not blame them for not helping. And then there is the rest of us, and we don't feel shame any longer. This is not about blame, it's about realizing what we've become.
Why should the west step up and right all the wrongs? Because they can. Why should I feel shame, if I didn't do anything wrong, when my only crime is indifference? Because I could. I just didn't realize...I was so busy looking for the 'answer' that I shut my eyes tight. The shame should be my badge of dishonour to wear. I can't change everything, but i'm not insignificant. This isn't a 'You can make a difference' rant, it's a message to myself to never stop being myself.
You say that we have no say. Maybe we don't, but how will I know until I try. I have to. You have to.
Ni ryari izuba, Rizagaruka, Hejuru yacu,
Nduzaricyeza ricyeza.
When will the sun rise again?
Who will reveal it "to" us again?
I will.
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Thursday, April 06, 2006
The Retrograde Composition
Did you know, that there are no right answers?
Black is an the absence of light, but it is also the combination of all colours. Three lefts make a right, but so does a single left if the path is circular. The answer can also be, it doesn't if you believe it is the journey not the destination that matters. Extremism is in itself measured by the postion of other players in the field and middle-class is elite provided you apply the right economies of scale.
Divination has to exist, if we have been fore-warned from its use; which results in the amusing conclusion: Those who call belief of such ignorance are themselves ignorant, which in itself is not profound, since I knew this as a 6 year old in the timeless, if juvenille, comeback: "Jo kehta hai wohi hota hai."
Morality is not subjective, becuase its quite set in stone for every person until ofcourse time and experience weather stone away. Furthermore, aggregates can solve all issues of subjectivity, period, while putting objectivity at risk ofcourse. It is not clear whose objectives we are trying not achieve at this moment, however.
Ignorance of the masses, actually collectively assumes ignorance of the individual, and at the same time knowledge of such ignorance negates ignorant elevating it to merely indifference. In difference, broken up neatly like so, actually does not imply 'not caring' but on the contrary opposition through inaction, when ofcourse the desired action would be to act.
You know i'm getting at something right? But what? Sorry, can't tell but I will go on, so there is still time. Fundamentalism, means to believe in fundamentals, the opposite of which is probably Jungle's Law: Might is right. Now it gets amusing, the opposition of fundamentals leads to jungle law, yet siding with it means we lay down standards and force people to comply; meaning that having come full circle, we are back at the Jungle. If you're trying to keep this all in context, this would be the equivalent of making three lefts.
Religion is a collection of beliefs that cannot be proven, so is believing the sky is green. 'Green Sky' is actually a recorded natural phenom in which, given the right circumstances the sky appears green. Being good at debates actually means the opposite, to say that you left ground open for argumentation before you can bring closure and show that you were indeed correct, is an indirect reference to the fact that your claim was such that it induced an arguement to begin with.
The Big Bang Theory actually is used both to prove and disprove the existence of God, since it cannot explain anything before Singularity (which is a good oxymoron in its own right) and accounting for Occom's Razor merely leads us back to the subjectivity of what is the simplest explanation. Objectivity ofcourse being aggregate subjectivity (see above) leading us to the natural conclusion that by jungle law (majority being might) God exists. On a complete sidenote, the name was obviously coined by a perverted individual who badly needs to get laid, but by extension I am perverted (or merely perceptive) that I got the joke, good one.
Strangely, love is actually weaker than hate, since people often kill others for hate, and rarely for love. By hating someone you have the strongest emotion possible for them, so perhaps the best form of love is actually weak love, which makes sense sense, as it would be one step removed from indifference, leading us neatly to: "Opposites attract."
Wisdom has to be knowing everything without knowing it, since otherwise you won't continue learning leading to being unwise. And yet by definition, if you don't know you are wise then you don't know everything. I am aware of the term circuitous logic, but are you aware that to complete a circuit is at times not the thing to be avoided but instead the goal?
Lastly, being called abnormal is not an insult for if all you are striving for is normality you might as well kill yourself now. After all, all normal people die in the end.
Black is an the absence of light, but it is also the combination of all colours. Three lefts make a right, but so does a single left if the path is circular. The answer can also be, it doesn't if you believe it is the journey not the destination that matters. Extremism is in itself measured by the postion of other players in the field and middle-class is elite provided you apply the right economies of scale.
Divination has to exist, if we have been fore-warned from its use; which results in the amusing conclusion: Those who call belief of such ignorance are themselves ignorant, which in itself is not profound, since I knew this as a 6 year old in the timeless, if juvenille, comeback: "Jo kehta hai wohi hota hai."
Morality is not subjective, becuase its quite set in stone for every person until ofcourse time and experience weather stone away. Furthermore, aggregates can solve all issues of subjectivity, period, while putting objectivity at risk ofcourse. It is not clear whose objectives we are trying not achieve at this moment, however.
Ignorance of the masses, actually collectively assumes ignorance of the individual, and at the same time knowledge of such ignorance negates ignorant elevating it to merely indifference. In difference, broken up neatly like so, actually does not imply 'not caring' but on the contrary opposition through inaction, when ofcourse the desired action would be to act.
You know i'm getting at something right? But what? Sorry, can't tell but I will go on, so there is still time. Fundamentalism, means to believe in fundamentals, the opposite of which is probably Jungle's Law: Might is right. Now it gets amusing, the opposition of fundamentals leads to jungle law, yet siding with it means we lay down standards and force people to comply; meaning that having come full circle, we are back at the Jungle. If you're trying to keep this all in context, this would be the equivalent of making three lefts.
Religion is a collection of beliefs that cannot be proven, so is believing the sky is green. 'Green Sky' is actually a recorded natural phenom in which, given the right circumstances the sky appears green. Being good at debates actually means the opposite, to say that you left ground open for argumentation before you can bring closure and show that you were indeed correct, is an indirect reference to the fact that your claim was such that it induced an arguement to begin with.
The Big Bang Theory actually is used both to prove and disprove the existence of God, since it cannot explain anything before Singularity (which is a good oxymoron in its own right) and accounting for Occom's Razor merely leads us back to the subjectivity of what is the simplest explanation. Objectivity ofcourse being aggregate subjectivity (see above) leading us to the natural conclusion that by jungle law (majority being might) God exists. On a complete sidenote, the name was obviously coined by a perverted individual who badly needs to get laid, but by extension I am perverted (or merely perceptive) that I got the joke, good one.
Strangely, love is actually weaker than hate, since people often kill others for hate, and rarely for love. By hating someone you have the strongest emotion possible for them, so perhaps the best form of love is actually weak love, which makes sense sense, as it would be one step removed from indifference, leading us neatly to: "Opposites attract."
Wisdom has to be knowing everything without knowing it, since otherwise you won't continue learning leading to being unwise. And yet by definition, if you don't know you are wise then you don't know everything. I am aware of the term circuitous logic, but are you aware that to complete a circuit is at times not the thing to be avoided but instead the goal?
Lastly, being called abnormal is not an insult for if all you are striving for is normality you might as well kill yourself now. After all, all normal people die in the end.
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